Monday 4 July 2011

Myriad

 Right, so this is a bit of a myriad of a post (hence le title). Let's start off chronologically.

1) I'm not sure if I told you guys that I started texting Relationshippyguy. He texted me first saying he was free for a week and if I fancied seeing him to catch up (and obviously get down and dirty). And I did really want to. But he's still with his boyfriend. And of course, moral dilemma again. I'd feel shit if it was me that got cheated on etc. I DID think of a rather brilliant solution; get him to persuade his boyfriend to have a threesome with me. I get sex, they can stay together, perfect. He wasn't affected by it so we've left, just friends in contact now.

2) Crushdude has left the country for seven weeks abroad. It's awful. I really miss him. I see a map and I automatically scan to the country where he is and get sad about how far away he is. I feel like his mother, worrying about him. Very annoyed and angsty and upset about it all but seven weeks will hopefully be enough time to push him out of my mind. Difficult.

3) Started texting Scruffman a few days ago and we've been getting along really well like we always have. Talked about getting together on Thursday to do the dirty. I felt bad about the trust thing with my parents and they REALLY wouldn't be happy with his age. So we've toned it down to just lunch which I'm much happier with. But I still feel guilty about my fucking parents and they really won't want me to see him, I know it. My mother will get all bitchy and cold on me about it and ignore me for a few days until she gets her way as usual. My dad just won't be happy with it. And they won't trust me enough to believe that it'll just be lunch, which it will be. So I'm really messed up about that and don't know how to approach them or tell them about it, cos I do want to see him again and we're good friends now.

4 comments:

  1. I AM an old dude, and I (like your parents) think you should stay away.

    Not because of the age difference, but because you have to play by their rules, until you get out on your own.

    Once you're on your own, then enjoy the freedom to do what you want, and take responsibility for your actions.

    Sounds like you and your folks have a lot of mutual respect going on. I really don't see that very often, so my opinion is don't ruin it.

    Can I get off my soap box yet?

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  2. 1. Wise move. 3-somes with a couple seems like a good idea at the time but long term repercussions can be crappy. Potentially far too complicated and damaging for them and not worth risking their relationship IMO, however cute and willing you are.

    2. Yeah, you sounded quite down. As things and life fill the space it'll get better. You know that.

    3. Tricky. Well, your parents have a choice. They either accept you're just having a meal or they don't. In their position and based on what risks they know you've taken before (I'm 100% up to date on your blog now) I can understand their suspicion. If I were them I'd probably chain you to the bed (and not in a good way, ha). But if they choose to believe that you're off for sex and treat/blame you accordingly then you might as well have the fun.

    Seriously I'm not suggesting you do the dirty at all but it's an angle you could put to them I suppose. Even though you're legal (and have been since you were 16 as I said before) they could still make scruffmans life, as well as yours, uncomfortable. Not worth it.

    So, to recap, just tell them I'm 26 and come and see me instead ;)

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  3. Yeah, come on down.
    Even if it's just lunch? Come on, what's wrong with that? hahaa

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  4. Peace Bro - 1) Yeah I didn't give that angle much consideration honestly. So good job he didn't agree to it lol.
    2) Yep it sure will. :D
    3) That's a very good point dude and I like it. If I get any aggro from them that's what I'll throw at them.

    And for the record they probably wouldn't be happy with anyone over 24 so unlucky ;) and are you gonna send an email my way or not haha!

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